This all sucks. I hate it. Love itself is a mystery to me... I told Dan... that the reason I've been angery lately is because "Somebody else caught my eye aswell" and I told him not to worry. I think I crushed him. And therefore, I now feel bad. I'm hating every bit of this. Everything in my life(Other than Khrystyne and some friends...) is a fucking joke. I think God hates me.

So Dan's angery... i'm currently lonely and now crushed. and yet i almost feel better... i feel more.... ALIVE. Cut me and i bleed.

"But it's better that you know... isn't it?"
"Or if u just kept it to yourself and didn't do eny thing about it and let it go away"

How do i know these feelings for my crush are going to go away...? I just wanted you to know! Fuck i hate this all... I'm listening to The Blood Brothers - Rats and Rats and Rats for Candy... It makes me chuckle... Therefore. i'm slightly better...




Okay... Read this...

Dear Lovely;
I think that I like you. I just want to know you better. It's hard because you don't know well. and because I love Dan. I want to see where these feelings go though. I want to know you better. You're such a pritty boy. And I think you know who you are. You're older than me and May not notice me as more than a Grade.8 but I hope you would like to get to know me too...<3


"I'm breathing so I know that I'm alive, Even though signs tell my otherwise."

Greenaway - Without friends, Crushed inside.